CRAZY EYES!

I had to make room on my camera for Halloween Pictures tonight. I'm sure there will be many more of her and her crazy eyes. She thinks its so funny! It makes me hurt.

You can't go wrong with a chocolate filled!

So someone brought these donuts by while we where in Snowflake. Tessa was begging for one. I wasn't to worried about what my kids ate. I love this she was actually sucking the cream out!

Nothing better than a satified customer!

Better Late Than Never!

So McKenzie's birthday was 2 days before my mom passed away. We took these with the intention of posting about her birthday. I'm kind of out of it. She didn't want a normal birthday cake this year, she wanted cheese cake.

I can't believe how big she is now. She thinks she can do anything now that she is 10. We love her so much and she is such a good sister to all the little ones. Love ya sis.

I know I'm a procrastinator. I have some really cute pictures from Snowflake to put my blog, but have had a hard time functioning since we've been back home.

If you would have told me that my hardest time would be now when I'm back at home I wouldn't have believed it. I cried all the way to Payson and pretty much all that day when we came home. I don't know how to explain the way I felt. Kind of like I was panicking I felt like I was leaving my mom. I know that sounds crazy but being at her house made me feel close to her. I felt like I just wasn't ready to leave my dad yet, he has been such a good distraction and example to me. I guess it was just another step that made everything feel more final.

All and all we are doing good. My kids help keep me sane! They are all still having a hard time, I think they thought it wouldn't be so hard when we went home. I told them I think its good, it just shows us how much we loved her and depended on her. I have a good friend that it explained it to me like having a wound. She said just as it scabs over and you think it's almost healed something pulls the scab off and it's like a new wound again. I guess it's a pretty good analogy.

I promise this will be my last post of just me going on I know I like the pictures better to. Thanks again everyone for your prayers and kinds words.

Watcha Do'in Grandpa

My dad had really sore feet the other day. He decided to soak them in some hot water. Little Miss Tessa being the busy body she is decided she wanted to check it out!

I wonder what it tastes like?

I Wonder if I can get in!

O'ya that's just right!

I knew Grandpa would give in and let me in!

You think that will make me stop splashing!!

Thanks Grandpa for sharing!

Link to Mom's Video

To those of you who weren't able to go to the funeral Becky has posted her program and poem that we wrote and an awesome video we made to pay tribute to my mom. If your interested here is a link for you: http://www.wilsonrugrats.blogspot.com/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

These are a few goofy pictures with the grand kids. We were missing the Wilson rug rats and the two baby's, but as you can see they are all a bit weird!

Not quit the birthday any of us were planning on celebrating. I guess we will have to get use to a lot of firsts. Dad said last night I'm not sure I can do this without mom. Every since High School she has always been here.

It was definitely a hard day for everyone, but especially him. Brett and Nicki came from the valley and we all took him to dinner. It turned out to be a great night. He said how can I be sad when I have so much to be grateful for.

I have the greatest dad. I want him to know that I love him so very much. I am grateful to him for his example and his strength. I don't know what I'm going to do when I go home next week, I wish I could just take you with me!

Love you Dad

Char