THE RAINBOWWe cannot grasp it in our hand.
It's beginning and end we cannot see.
That brilliant multicolored band
He placed in the sky for you and me.
It's His promise of a brighter day
long after this storm has passed,
to remind us in a special way
that these sorrows will not last.
I have wanted to post something and have had a hard time deciding what. I am such a big boob right now. I guess I could blame it on pregnancy. I think I did a good job keeping myself numb for along time. It has hit me so hard, I feel very selfish because I need her so much. I know she is helping to prepare this new little spirit that we will be blessed with, and yes that makes it a little easier. But I do feel very cheated.
My sister sent me this awesome picture she took with her kids a month ago. I think I have told most of my friends how important rainbows have become to me and my children, actually not just me all of our family. My mom loved rainbows and was known to take pictures of them whenever she saw them. After we had picked out my moms casket, I was really struggling and just need some reassurance. Ryan and I had just stopped to pick our kids up and there wasn't a cloud in the sky but behind us there was this beautiful bright rainbow. I knew without my kids even saying it (which they did) I believe it was sent for us. Since then I haven't been back home without seeing a rainbow.
My friends new this and for Christmas had this beautiful poem and a picture that my mom had taken of a rainbow over the Snowflake temple mounted in a picture frame. What can I say to my friends besides thank you. The lord has truly blessed me with the best of friends. They have saved me thousands of dollars in therapy! They all are so good to call on those awful days. I love you guys..
To my family, I do know that I have the BEST family.. This year is a year I would love to just forget, open my eyes and pretend it was a awful dream. All the firsts were so hard and I know mom is greatly missed by all the grand kids. I pray that more than anything we can do her proud and raise our children the way she raised us. I pray that we can always keep her memory alive for us and our kids. And I pray that we will do our part to be together FOREVER.
